K exam

So, yeah. Overall not easy by any stretch, but it wasn't the worst thing in the world. I never got to the point where I ran out of things to write about. Anyway, speaking of contracts, here is a funny video a friend sent to me a while back that I thought I would share...

Two Hours

The first exam starts in 2 hours... i think I am ready... but of course I really am not. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Born Alone, Die Alone

So we are all born, obviously
The ones who aren't are saved from this mess
We are all born alone, in a world full of people
We all walk through our lives alone, in this place

We will all die alone
You can't deny it
The last thing anyone will do is think that last thought
no one else can hear your despair
no one else know what you are going through

they can hold your hand
they can comfort you
but it is themselves that they are comforting, really
it is not for you... not for your benefit

We are born alone, and we die alone
in between we are alone...

Choosing the future

So I have to choose classes today. This is the first time in law school that we get to determine when and who we have for class. I hope I choose wisely... my grades depend on it.

Storm

I love storms. Right now the rain is torrentially pouring down and lightning is striking all around. The thunder is drowning out my itunes, and i am sure the rain is flooding the ground all around. I guess its just me, but I love a good storm. It cleans everything, starts a new. I suppose that if I was a religious person (which I most certainly am not) I would like the Noah story. Sometimes I wish that I was the only person who survived a giant flood or something. I would be the last person on earth. I don't know how much different it would be from right now...

You don't know

You think I don't know...

but i know

the problem is...

you have no idea

You think I can't see

But I can see more with my eyes closed

I know what I see

I know what you see

You think that nothing ever lasts

well, here i am

I've lasted the whole time

You thought I didn't know

but I knew

like I know you

Atheism

Just Relax, and it will be Good.

So life is like a chinese finger trap. At least some things are. You can't pull or push too hard, or you will just stay stuck. If you relax, then things will be ok. Damm you childs toy. Why didn't I learn this lesson earlier.

Headache

It is that time again. I have a headache. No, not that time, finals time. Not ready. I don't know if I will be. Worried. But i don't stress out too much

Shallow

How can we... be... so shallow
to think that this time, we can change the world
How can we... be... so indifferent
to hear people cry, but pretend not to know why
How can we... be... so passified
we don't care, if we don't go anywhere
How can we... be... so petrified
this wave is coming, we're gona get knocked down

Lets fight till the end
give up everything, everything
Lets tie up the loose ends
ill show you everything, everything
Lets go down this road
we don't know where it goes
we don't know, we don't care, i don't care anymore....

addiction

OMG so the internet went down in the library for an hour today, and i thought i was gona die. I think i have that Nomophobia (No Mobile Phobia) that people get when they are deathly afraid of not being connected.

How will I know if something happened in the campaign?
How will I know if I got a new email?
What if something big happens in the news?

What will I do if I can't get on the internet?

The Wild

I am watching Into the Wild, instead of studying. But its ok, not a big deal. This movie, in a small way reminds me of myself. Although I find it difficult to think that i could ever just drop everything and hitchhike around the country. But in theory it sounds like a good idea. The freedom that one gains by giving up everything can be quite amazing.

Actually... that makes me think. Most of my favorite movies are about people who give up everything to figure themselves out. Once you strip away all the crap that people collect, and the commercial things people think they need, you are only left with yourself, and that is scary for most people. We just fill the void in ourselves with things, like clothing, devices, cars, expensive houses, etc...

It is very tempting to go into the wild and never come back. Very tempting.

The Fools Who Were Our Guides

The fools who were our guides,
pacified, by madness
The men who lead our lives
they all say we're going nowhere

Our youth, drowning out of sight
the future was bright, now its alright
Our past, not as good as we'd hoped
the times seemed good, but now they don't

The fools who were our guides
tranquilized, by gold
The women who make us cry
they all know we're nowhere

And we hope, that someday
we will find the path, make our way
and I know it's OK
the sun never sets on me

Alone Again

For the first time, for a long time

I have felt very much alone

No one to share with no one who cares

The second I realized that...

by pushing i pulled too hard

I tried to stop, but it was too late

rallying against the quicksand only makes things worse

and now my feet are entrapped in mud

and now my heart is entrapped in stone

Maybe some day they will find my body, fossilized from millenia of neglect

They will wonder what happened to this poor creature

who was left for dead

Then I will break out of my tomb of loneliness

and fly away

For I am evolving

even when I am standing still

I am changing

I can adjust

I can prevail

But now, for the last time

I consider my options

And I realize that in this universe, I am all alone