t alive. I am sooooo much happier now than i was then. Lying awake, alone in bed, waiting. Sitting on the edge of my bed staring at the mirror and wondering what had happened. Pretending that things didn't bother me when they really did. I have realized that I deserved much more than that, and it helps me to remember that now that things have gotten better.
Monday, October 5, 2009
A look in the mirror
I can't help but think back to a year or two ago and how miserable and lonely i was. I recall the desperateness i once felt for something that felt real and fel
t alive. I am sooooo much happier now than i was then. Lying awake, alone in bed, waiting. Sitting on the edge of my bed staring at the mirror and wondering what had happened. Pretending that things didn't bother me when they really did. I have realized that I deserved much more than that, and it helps me to remember that now that things have gotten better.
t alive. I am sooooo much happier now than i was then. Lying awake, alone in bed, waiting. Sitting on the edge of my bed staring at the mirror and wondering what had happened. Pretending that things didn't bother me when they really did. I have realized that I deserved much more than that, and it helps me to remember that now that things have gotten better.
Friday, October 2, 2009
My Life List
I have…
• Contracted Lyme’s disease
• Learned the guitar
• Played and toured with a band
• Went to the Galapagos Islands and Ecuador
• Hiked in the Grand Canyon
• Sky dived
• White water rafted
• Learned to rock climb
• Wrote a song for a girl
• Performed on MTV with my band
• Ran a marathon
• Gave a speech in front of 400 people
• Got a motorcycle
• Graduated from College
• Helped Elect a President
• Zip lined across a canyon
• Went Caving
• Roadied for Dashboard Confessional
• Wrote a speech that an “Advisor to the President” gave
• Worked at the ACLU
• Learned to shoot a gun
• Finished my first year of law school successfully
• Shared a guitar tech with Ozzy’s guitarist
• Volunteered at a homeless shelter
• Drove a boat
• Visited a rain forest
• Worked in the White House
• Played Starting Quarterback for a football team
• Trained a dog
• Recorded a CD
• Had my car stolen and set on fire with all my possessions in it
• Went to Cancun
• Survived a motorcycle crash
• Went to Puerto Rico
• Went on a cruise
• Went to Disney World
• Made a website
• See the National Symphony
• Worked to help Bonobos
• Went to 30+ Pearl Jam concerts
• Made friends through social networking
• Drove a Mustang 100mph through the desert
I will…
• Climb Mt. Everest
• Raft the Colorado River and hike the Grand Canyon
• Fall in love
• Open a nonprofit to benefit education for low income children
• Learn to fly a small plane
• Climb Mt McKinley
• Record an acoustic album
• Live on my own
• Drive cross country (on motorcycle?)
• Run a Triathlon
• Learn to Salsa Dance
• Visit Australia and New Zealand
• Buy a Harley Davidson
• Contracted Lyme’s disease
• Learned the guitar
• Played and toured with a band
• Went to the Galapagos Islands and Ecuador
• Hiked in the Grand Canyon
• Sky dived
• White water rafted
• Learned to rock climb
• Wrote a song for a girl
• Performed on MTV with my band
• Ran a marathon
• Gave a speech in front of 400 people
• Got a motorcycle
• Graduated from College
• Helped Elect a President
• Zip lined across a canyon
• Went Caving
• Roadied for Dashboard Confessional
• Wrote a speech that an “Advisor to the President” gave
• Worked at the ACLU
• Learned to shoot a gun
• Finished my first year of law school successfully
• Shared a guitar tech with Ozzy’s guitarist
• Volunteered at a homeless shelter
• Drove a boat
• Visited a rain forest
• Worked in the White House
• Played Starting Quarterback for a football team
• Trained a dog
• Recorded a CD
• Had my car stolen and set on fire with all my possessions in it
• Went to Cancun
• Survived a motorcycle crash
• Went to Puerto Rico
• Went on a cruise
• Went to Disney World
• Made a website
• See the National Symphony
• Worked to help Bonobos
• Went to 30+ Pearl Jam concerts
• Made friends through social networking
• Drove a Mustang 100mph through the desert
I will…
• Climb Mt. Everest
• Raft the Colorado River and hike the Grand Canyon
• Fall in love
• Open a nonprofit to benefit education for low income children
• Learn to fly a small plane
• Climb Mt McKinley
• Record an acoustic album
• Live on my own
• Drive cross country (on motorcycle?)
• Run a Triathlon
• Learn to Salsa Dance
• Visit Australia and New Zealand
• Buy a Harley Davidson
A new world
I feel like I've been here before... except it's all Deja Vu.
So I took another 6 month Hiatus from blogging, and a lot has happened in between.
I now have a job in Silver Spring, MD. I really like it. I help patients with a rare disease fund their support group meetings. It is a very satisfying job, especially when I talk to the patients, and they seem very grateful for what we do.
I met a girl. She doesn't live here, but hopefully will soon. For the first time in a long time I am willing to wait for something. I suppose that means that I finally think that I've found something worth waiting for.
I have decided to climb Mt. Rainier this spring. I will be signing up for the trip in the next few weeks when I get the money.
I think I'm going to post my new life to do list soon.
That is all.
So I took another 6 month Hiatus from blogging, and a lot has happened in between.
I now have a job in Silver Spring, MD. I really like it. I help patients with a rare disease fund their support group meetings. It is a very satisfying job, especially when I talk to the patients, and they seem very grateful for what we do.
I met a girl. She doesn't live here, but hopefully will soon. For the first time in a long time I am willing to wait for something. I suppose that means that I finally think that I've found something worth waiting for.
I have decided to climb Mt. Rainier this spring. I will be signing up for the trip in the next few weeks when I get the money.
I think I'm going to post my new life to do list soon.
That is all.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Another long while
Things i have done since November:
- Helped with the Inauguration
- saw my new president get sworn in
- met POTUS and FLOTUS in the Blue room of the WH
- worked a shitty coffee job for a month
- Interned at the WH
- stopped interning at the WH
- Drank alot
- met a lot of cool DC'ers and others who were visiting DC
- Found myself a little more
Monday, December 8, 2008
A long december
SO as i said in my last post several months ago, long days consumed me for the last few months. But, you know, we WON!!! We took Indiana by about 28,000 votes on Nov 4th. Every single hour and every day paid off. I would have been happy had Obama simply won the White House, but to win my very first state was a huge bonus. Anyway, I hope to continue to post here while i can.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Its been a while
7 days a week
15-18 Hours a day
77 days left
that is what I have been up to since I got here
Its been pretty busy. It's been like pushing a giant boulder to the top of a hill, but once it i get it there, it should roll pretty quickly down...
BTW - A fire at a nuclear Power Plant in Cali? I call it the west wing prophesies now!
15-18 Hours a day
77 days left
that is what I have been up to since I got here
Its been pretty busy. It's been like pushing a giant boulder to the top of a hill, but once it i get it there, it should roll pretty quickly down...
BTW - A fire at a nuclear Power Plant in Cali? I call it the west wing prophesies now!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Moving On....
So i am moving on to my next adventure. Tomorow I am leaving for another place. I am very excited. I think I have this leaving thing down, although I don't do the whole 'coming back' thing very well. Lets see how it works out. Right now, everything after 8pm November 4th is hiding in a thick, soupy fog. I guess what happens after all depends on how hard myself and a million others do in between.
I have a big challenge when I get there. My region has a slew of talented people and I have to excel at everything. That means 7 days a week 7am to whenever it takes. It's not like I haven't done it before, though. Anyway. 110 days left. See you on the other side.
I have a big challenge when I get there. My region has a slew of talented people and I have to excel at everything. That means 7 days a week 7am to whenever it takes. It's not like I haven't done it before, though. Anyway. 110 days left. See you on the other side.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Shock me shock me with that deviant behavior...
Nobody Saw this coming...
Four Western oil companies are in the final stages of negotiations this month on contracts that will return them to Iraq, 36 years after losing their oil concession to nationalization as Saddam Hussein rose to power.
Exxon Mobil, Shell, Total and BP — the original partners in the Iraq Petroleum Company — along with Chevron and a number of smaller oil companies, are in talks with Iraq’s Oil Ministry for no-bid contracts to service Iraq’s largest fields, according to ministry officials, oil company officials and an American diplomat. ...
The no-bid contracts are unusual for the industry, and the offers prevailed over others by more than 40 companies, including companies in Russia, China and India. The contracts, which would run for one to two years and are relatively small by industry standards, would nonetheless give the companies an advantage in bidding on future contracts in a country that many experts consider to be the best hope for a large-scale increase in oil production.
There was suspicion among many in the Arab world and among parts of the American public that the United States had gone to war in Iraq precisely to secure the oil wealth these contracts seek to extract. The Bush administration has said that the war was necessary to combat terrorism. It is not clear what role the United States played in awarding the contracts; there are still American advisers to Iraq’s Oil Ministry.
Read the whole thing here
Four Western oil companies are in the final stages of negotiations this month on contracts that will return them to Iraq, 36 years after losing their oil concession to nationalization as Saddam Hussein rose to power.
Exxon Mobil, Shell, Total and BP — the original partners in the Iraq Petroleum Company — along with Chevron and a number of smaller oil companies, are in talks with Iraq’s Oil Ministry for no-bid contracts to service Iraq’s largest fields, according to ministry officials, oil company officials and an American diplomat. ...
The no-bid contracts are unusual for the industry, and the offers prevailed over others by more than 40 companies, including companies in Russia, China and India. The contracts, which would run for one to two years and are relatively small by industry standards, would nonetheless give the companies an advantage in bidding on future contracts in a country that many experts consider to be the best hope for a large-scale increase in oil production.
There was suspicion among many in the Arab world and among parts of the American public that the United States had gone to war in Iraq precisely to secure the oil wealth these contracts seek to extract. The Bush administration has said that the war was necessary to combat terrorism. It is not clear what role the United States played in awarding the contracts; there are still American advisers to Iraq’s Oil Ministry.
Read the whole thing here
Monday, June 16, 2008
Lost Opportunity
So I found out yesterday that an old co-worker of mine died recently. I wasn't particularly close to this person, nor did I really like him a lot, but I feel a great sense of sadness that he died.
We argued a lot at work, over politics and history, but we both had a similar view that things could change. In his life he didn't have a lot of luck, as he put it. He grew up in a poor inner city, and learned from the words of wisdom of his grandfather, an old black man from the deep south. A lot of the sayings that he would make would be those old southern sayings.
When we first met he aspired to work in the job he had. His goal was to work in the printing industry, because that was all he had ever known. He was suspicious of education and educated people, because all the educated people he had ever known tried to screw him out of money, freedom or both. The educated were the government people who created the ghettos in which he lived. It was the educated who had initially allowed slavery in the Constitution, and that caused his people to be in the situation they find themselves today.
Throughout the year or so that we worked together we discussed many things, but the topic that most often sticks out in my head is Education. I made it my goal to convince him that education was the key, the silver bullet that can cure all worlds ills and destroy poverty. He had never seen it this way.
By the time I stopped working there, he was convinced that he was going to go back to school and get a degree in sociology or political science. Whether or not he said this for my benefit or not, I am not sure. He went from seeing his community as a bucket of crabs, where when one tries to get out, the rest pull em back in, to seeing opportunity for the future, and hope for a better tomorrow. He had hope that he could do better for himself. And for his son.
He had a 6 year old that was his life. As anyone that knows me, I don't like kids. However he stayed with his girlfriend of 15 years for his son. He understood what it was like growing up without a father, and knew that his son wouldn't have the same opportunities and learning experiences without a father, than with. He tried real hard to do good for his son.
Anyway, long story short, i find it sad that he is now gone and won't have the opportunity to go back to school, see his son graduate from high school, go to college or start his first day of work. It is sad that he will never know whether his son had done better than he had for himself. And while I will never be a parent, I would imagine that every mom and dads goal is for their child to do better than they had.
Happy Fathers day Al.
We argued a lot at work, over politics and history, but we both had a similar view that things could change. In his life he didn't have a lot of luck, as he put it. He grew up in a poor inner city, and learned from the words of wisdom of his grandfather, an old black man from the deep south. A lot of the sayings that he would make would be those old southern sayings.
When we first met he aspired to work in the job he had. His goal was to work in the printing industry, because that was all he had ever known. He was suspicious of education and educated people, because all the educated people he had ever known tried to screw him out of money, freedom or both. The educated were the government people who created the ghettos in which he lived. It was the educated who had initially allowed slavery in the Constitution, and that caused his people to be in the situation they find themselves today.
Throughout the year or so that we worked together we discussed many things, but the topic that most often sticks out in my head is Education. I made it my goal to convince him that education was the key, the silver bullet that can cure all worlds ills and destroy poverty. He had never seen it this way.
By the time I stopped working there, he was convinced that he was going to go back to school and get a degree in sociology or political science. Whether or not he said this for my benefit or not, I am not sure. He went from seeing his community as a bucket of crabs, where when one tries to get out, the rest pull em back in, to seeing opportunity for the future, and hope for a better tomorrow. He had hope that he could do better for himself. And for his son.
He had a 6 year old that was his life. As anyone that knows me, I don't like kids. However he stayed with his girlfriend of 15 years for his son. He understood what it was like growing up without a father, and knew that his son wouldn't have the same opportunities and learning experiences without a father, than with. He tried real hard to do good for his son.
Anyway, long story short, i find it sad that he is now gone and won't have the opportunity to go back to school, see his son graduate from high school, go to college or start his first day of work. It is sad that he will never know whether his son had done better than he had for himself. And while I will never be a parent, I would imagine that every mom and dads goal is for their child to do better than they had.
Happy Fathers day Al.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
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